“Faithfulness to Jesus means that I must step out even when and where I can’t see anything (see Matt. 14:29). But faithfulness to my own ideas means that I first clear the way mentally. Faith, however, is not intellectual understanding; faith is a deliberate commitment to the Person of Jesus Christ, even when I can’t see the way ahead.” Oswald Chambers My Utmost for His Highest, March 28th

I am so bad at this. If I hear him ask/tell me to do something, I’m usually reluctant till everything is planned out. And, of course, it rarely is because God’s ideas don’t usually, if ever, look possible to human eyes.

For example, I continually hear from God that I need to write. And a few months ago I felt he was prompting me to use my mornings to write. So, at that time, I let go, didn’t over analyze it, and listened. Things went well the first few weeks, and everything else in my schedule was done in a timely manner, too.

Then, like Peter, I took my eyes off Jesus. I began to really look at my “To do” list and began to calculate the time and began to freak out. Then I quickly began to sink and stress out. Now, several weeks later, I’m even further behind and still stressed out and still not getting everything done, despite the fact that I’ve taken my mornings back.

Maybe I should take another lesson from Peter, reach out my hand, and ask Him for help.