I want you to be free from anxieties. The unmarried man is anxious about the things of the Lord, how to please the Lord. But the married man is anxious about worldly things, how to please his wife, and his interests are divided. And the unmarried or betrothed woman is anxious about the things of the Lord, how to be holy in body and spirit. But the married woman is anxious about worldly things, how to please her husband. I say this for your own benefit, not to lay any restraint upon you, but to promote good order and to secure your undivided devotion to the Lord. (1 Cor. 7:32-34)
I find myself lately feeling racked with guilt over my lack of time to spend with God. Before kids I used to spend 30 minutes or so each morning and an hour if I was really lucky digging deep and really mining the Bible and other books for what God wanted me to learn.
Now? Ha! I’m lucky to get 10 minutes to myself to briefly glance at a few verses, and most days I just need fed, I don’t have the time or the energy to dig deep.
Then, the last few days I saw it. The words of guilt were from Satan. God understood. It wasn’t like my time with God was the only part of my life that has changed drastically in the last two years. My eating habits, sleeping habits, playing habits, even time with Jeremy has all been shortened or drastically revised. So why did I expect my time with God to stay the same?
God has been showing me the important thing is making time with Him a daily priority. Even if it is just a few minutes. He has also showed me that the time I spend teaching my children about him, singing songs together, praying with them, and the prayers whispered in my heart throughout the day, are all part of this new relationship. A relationship that isn’t better or worse than the old one, just different, and that’s okay.