“Many are the plans in a man’s heart, but it is the Lord’s purpose that prevails.” ~Proverbs 19:20
There is a phenomenon called “post-graduation depression.” I scientifically (not really) looked it up on Google. There is lots of information out there about it. I’m there. Not clinically depressed, mind you, but lack of motivation, apathy, little energy, and lack of interest (one reason this post is late). It is frustrating, to say the least. I am finally out of school! I have the opportunity to do any or all of the items on my LAS (life after school) list! But while part of me cares and wants to get started right away, another part is tired of being pushed around (for example, being exhausted and having one more assignment deadline to meet, so instead of allowing myself to go to bed after a challenging day at work, I regularly stayed up until 12am or 1am to complete the assignment). That part of me simply wants to rest.
Many of my favorite verses speak to this:
“This is what the Sovereign Lord, the Holy One of Israel says: ‘In repentance and rest is your salvation, in quietness and trust is your strength, but you would have none of it.’” ~Isaiah 30:15
“Wait for the Lord; be strong and take heart and wait for the Lord.” ~ Psalm 27:14
“I wait for the Lord, my soul waits, and in his word I put my hope. My soul waits for the Lord more than watchmen wait for the morning, more than watchmen wait for the morning.” ~ Psalm 130:5, 6
“In the morning, O Lord, you hear my voice; in the morning I lay my requests before you and wait in expectation.” ~ Psalm 5:3
“We wait in hope for the Lord; he is our help and our shield. In him our hearts rejoice, for we trust in his holy name. May your unfailing love be with us, LORD, even as we put our hope in you.” ~ Psalm 33:20-22
“Yet the Lord longs to be gracious to you; he rises to show you compassion. For the Lord is a God of justice. Blessed are all who wait for him!” ~ Isaiah 30:18
I am learning that, like resting, waiting is an action verb. Waiting is not a waste of time (of which part of me is sure it is!). I have walked with the Lord long enough to know that while I think the shortest way from point A to point B is a straight line, many times God says, “Oh no! You must go back to Z first and start there!” While this makes no sense to me at all, and sometimes it looks as though all is lost, the results have always been far better than I could have imagined. God had not forgotten me.
So in this time in between full-time school and life after school, I am practicing waiting and resting with a good attitude. I am once again practicing trusting God