But seek first the kingdom of God and his righteousness, and all these things will be added to you. ~ Matt. 6:33
Quick Sip
Every now and then, it seems I get a glimpse of heaven. A taste of what it’s like to really “seek first the kingdom of heaven” and trust God that “all these things will be added to you” (Matt. 6:33).
For me it’s like the trust fall exercise. Where you cross your arms over your chest, fall backwards, and let someone else that you trust well catches you. For an instant you feel that rush that freedom that you’re actually letting go, but then at the last second fear kicks in, trust flies out the window, and you step back with your foot to catch yourself.
I do the same with God all the time. I’ll think, “Okay, God. I’m going to really let go and trust you. I’m going to seek you first, and trust that you will take care of our needs.” Sometimes these thoughts show on the outside as a huge leap of faith others can see, but most often it’s the position of my heart towards God. I let go of my worries for the future and the what if’s, and I trust him. However, often just like the trust exercise, just as I’m feeling that rush of letting go and of freedom, I get scared. I step back and catch myself. I worry. I’m anxious. I try to plan, though I really have no idea what’s coming next.
Oh, for the grace to live in that place. To constantly abide in the rush of letting go, in the freedom of trusting God, in that glimpse of heaven.
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